Recently I’ve found out that it happened unexpectedly often that I feel upset and in bad mood, without “ganas de hacer algo” (wishes to do sth) or possibility to concentrate, and it’s absolutely not about depression, spring solstice or bad weather. Maybe it is just laziness (somehow it’s a very probably theory, since I’m a lazy person) but certainly not only. Why not?
It happened that I spend this easter break at my friend’s place, watching her pets (a dog, two cats and an old rat). So I had to divide my time between school, work, home (where I had to help prepare everything for feastdays (you know, cleaning, baking, going out with my dog, making food, making more food etc.) and coming back on time to pets, to take dog for a walk and feed the whole company. And every morning and evening I still had time and force to sit down and study. So why it doesn’t work now, when I’m home and no one wants anything from me? Any dogs or cats which would want to play with me (or eat me) or need to go out immediately. Peace and silence.
OK, right now it can be just tiredness, but the true is that it always looks like this. I love to read books and like to learn new things (especially languages). But regardless to my motivation, it doesn’t work out when I’m home. It doesn’t work even with films. I want to watch something so badly but don’t have time, and then, when I finally have some – I end doing something else (like checking facebook) or sleeping (especially when I have wanted to do something at morning)
So now I will try to analyze why things are like they are:
1) Wanting to achieve too many different things at once (like three languages, or even four, history, Spanish literature and basic knowledge about science ;)
2) Yep, there are so many interesting things in internet, which shouldn’t be missed: videos, articles, facebook’s status or links and so on.
3) Classic: too much stress caused by family (you know, you want to do something, and then someone tells you have to help him with something or is angry with you ‘coz you forgot to do something he ask…
4) Pure laziness
5) Not enough sleep
6) Trying to do too much (and being tiered)
7) A general incapability to concentrate on one thing
8) A lack of persistence
I tried various solutions, like: writing to-do list, spending more time outside (oxygen, sun and things like those), drinking more water (the need of liquid make you sleepy), reading motivation articles and perhaps something more, what I can’t remind right now. However, everything ended up equally: I still can’t pull myself to do the tedious exercises or memorize lists of words.
Maybe I am just a hopeless case. But still, I want to achieve my dreams and believe that one, beautiful day I will find the way to get rid of this tiresome laziness and be happy language crazy geek .
Cheers!
(I know that my English is still very clumsy but I am sure that I’m making progress)
(Please, feel free to correct my errors)
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